The last few months have been pretty rough, I went through what can honestly be described as a mental breakdown. This came about because I parted ways with someone I was seeing for even just a few weeks and also because I realized I was losing hair and probably am going bald.

This really affected me deeply, I had a nice haircut and had long hair, people commented on it, without knowing it because part of my identity. So the idea of losing that seemed rough. Mainly because this would affect me finding a partner. The two ideas of not being wanted and that had to do with something outside of my control really pushed me over the line along with my job being just becoming really stressful and not enjoyable.

I felt immensely alone and lonely, the closest friend I had when I messaged him for some help, said to "man up", he is no longer a friend. After a few weeks, I just reached out to people around me.

Turns out there are a lot of people who care about me, that want me around, that like me!

Which is to say that I was wrong! whatever thoughts and ideas I had of the people around me was wrong! I have decided that I would stay here, for the better or worse, till the very end I will not do anything stupid.

I'm slowly building myself back up with hopes of a better and better me.